Have you ever felt as if the people around you sometimes throw you to wolves?
It has been a long long time since I was made to feel like that. Especially by people that I hold so dear.
The worst part is that no one seems to feel like they could have prevented the weird set of circumstances that transpired. It was as if it was a perfect storm had all clash together in a brilliant strike that happened to have me dead smack in the middle of it.
It’s hard to even figure out who to be upset with. All I know is that when it happened I suddenly felt so small and insignificant. I was quickly reminded me of what it felt like to be a child between fighting parents who were caught up with their emotions.
Thirty five going on five apparently.
This winter my challenge will be helping my family and myself fight seasonal depression. This has been a trying year and being stuck inside is never the best thing for that.
I have been looking for crafts and cheaper options of things around us to do. One would think in such a big city there would be an endless amount of things to do but sticking to a budget makes it ridiculous.
However the battle has only just begun….
Every year I say that I am going to buy less for Christmas for everyone around me.
And just like every other person in the world, I find myself dreading the amount of hours that I will need to work to pay off the credit card debt I accrued instead.
This is my tranquility.
This is my love.
In the moments of the wild
Take the time to learn the calm.
September is Suicide prevention month. After being very personally affected by suicide during crucial growing years I feel as if I will always dedicate whatever I can to help prevent anyone from having to go through the loss.
Mental illness is still considered to be a thing people think that we chose.
Who in their right mind decides to spin the wheel and have it land on an invisible -illness?
From a chronic pain patient to a schizophrenic with bipolar tendencies and all things in between the reactions of disbelief are the same. No one believes that either could be a real thing. As if a person sees a tv show where someone acts a certain way so they are going to attempt to mirror their life around them. Don’t get me wrong, there are assholes out there that must do something like that. But the few that do should not be considered the normal.
Normalizing mental health awareness is something that has been long coming and should be held at the utmost importance.
Reach out. Find someone that is willing to listen. Make sure they understand how important it is to you. You don’t have to fight alone.
Learn the cues. Find out how to see the signs. Let them teach you how to help.
Find a support group on social media. Find a group in your community. Make the call. Send the text.
24 hours a day.
Recently I have noticed that when you force people around you to notice the good things that people do, they resist.
You cant make them do it.
The only thing that you can do is surround yourself as best as you can with positive things. Cute little sayings on canvas that you can post around your house. Inspirational videos to watch instead of news coverage of the most recent atrocities in the areas near you. Find a way to remove the most negative people around you, in the most effective way possible. Sometimes thats as simple as to stop calling or messaging the person. Block them on social media instead of deleting them.
Find what makes you happy. Who cares what other people think. Who cares whoe doesnt understand your passions.
Does it make you happy?
Does it bring you peace?
Does it calm your nerves?
Then do it.