The need to surrender

  1. Surrender
Surrender …I surrender to you my past, present, and future problems. I ask You to take hold over every aspect of my life. I surrender to You all my hurt, pain, worry, doubt, fear, and anxiety, and I ask You to wash me clean. I release everything into Your compassionate care. Please speak to me clearly, [Lord]. Open my ears to hear Your voice. Open my heart to commune with You more deeply. I want to feel Your loving embrace. Open the doors that need to be opened and close the doors that need to be closed. Please set my feet upon the straight and narrow road that leads to everlasting life

I recently had a family member pass away that had battled addiction for most of his short life. I haven’t dealt with it very well. Everyone keeps reaching out since I have a horrible habit of hiding from things like this. They have the best intentions for sure. I love them for knowing to keep trying, but they trigger an immediate auto response of “I’m fine.”

How do you get passed this? I have lost too many people over the years to be naive enough to think there is an answer. Especially one that would happen as fast as i want it to.

Sometimes I search up addiction and recovery videos on different social media platforms. I think I do it to give myself a way to cry and get the hidden feelings out.

Time heals everything right? That’s what they say at least.

Author: Bookstore owners daughter

Mom. Wife. Woman. Pet lover. Survivor. Medical Miracle. Fertile Myrtle. Sister. Daughter. Granddaughter. Book lover.

5 thoughts on “The need to surrender”

  1. everyone deals with grief in different ways. any or none would work for anyone else. there is no shame to say you are having a problem dealing with this or any situation. if religion is your crutch, then seek guidance there. if you have a trusted friend, then seek guidance there. maybe a professional can help. we all grieve in our own way and must go through the process in our on speed. take comfort that those who have gone, are suffering no more.

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