Throughout my entire life I have always had one constant source of calm. One way to dissapear and spend some time focusing on my inner peace.
That’s what it’s all about.
With everything in life being about taking care of others, it’s too easy to forget yourself.
I continue on my path to slow down and make peace with myself.
There are times in your life where you realize those people who value you, and those who do not.
Sometimes all it takes is a fight to show true colors.
Other times it’s finding out that they are cheating you in some way. Maybe they are telling your personal business to other people. Maybe they are actually lying to your face about things.
Sometimes they just pull away and dont show you the respect you deserve by explaining the problems to you, they are too busy telling them to everyone else.
The only thing that comes out of these situations is knowing that you respect yourself enough to Never cry for that person who doesn’t know the value of your tears.
Did you know that it’s ok to just say no to things?
You don’t have to always make up excuses. You don’t have to blame other people and say they cause you to miss something.
It doesn’t matter if it’s your best friend, or the lady at work who throws too many parties.
You can just say no.
They can push, and not understand. Thats ok. They can even get mad. You can take the time and do the right thing and explain to them that these things just aren’t for you. You can explain that you don’t do crowds, you have anxiety, or you just needed some “me time”. They don’t normally care, but you can feel free to try it.
But you don’t have to go to everything.
Friends Family and Coworkers should all understand that you are your own person, with your own things that make you uncomfortable. You don’t have to miss everything. But sometimes it’s ok.
Sometimes you run across something thay just moves you. It could be a a picture, song, smell, maybe even a video.
This picture is the calm before the storm from Hurricane Harvey. I have no idea who took it, I found it as a picture being passed around social media. But it caught me.
Interpret what you will, but I immediately saw this and saw mystery. Except it’s the best kind.
The kind that tells you that you don’t need to always know the ending spot. You just have to get on the road.
Today I challenged myself to spend time alone. As a young mom who continued to have children for many years, I never gave myself time to learn who I was.
I continue to challenge myself to shed old skin and become who I want to be, not who I was forced to be. I love my children beyond any words, however I lost myself.
Now it’s time to find me.
Making the decision to make changes or try something new is hard. This idea to put my feelings, my thoughts, my inner peace onto paper for everyone to read is daunting.
My opinions can be different from yours.
My feelings can feel different than yours.
My eyes can see the same thing that your eyes see, but I can still see it different than yours.
I can still say it. I can still put my pretty little fingers to these nice keys and type it out. I can still express my thoughts.
So can you.
I just want things to slow down for just a few damn days. Time to take a breath. Be part of the calm. Remind myself who I am as a person, not just the runner of errands.